What do you feel?

Dear Son,

What do you feel when you see mom & dad go to office everyday and left you with si mba? I often see you cry when we're about to go..My heart is also cry..I wish I could stay with you..play with you..read a book for you..feed you..

But since life is not gonna give us everything for free, mom&dad have to fight for our life. We have to work to ensure that our mortgage being paid. We have to work for your education. We have to save money for mom&dad's old days so we won't be your burden. We have to save money for our holiday :)

When people know that I'm a working mom, some of them said "Terus..anak lo ditinggal?" At 1st, I feel ashamed that I left my son at home. That I couldn't stay at home for taking care of my own son. But..hey..every family has a different condition. Then..are you gonna help us to pay our bills, people?

One think for sure, whenever I could, I'll try to always be with you. This is not a promise. This is my commitment. I want to be your best friend whenever you need me, wherever you need me. I want to be parents who guide you. I want you to trust me for everything.

This is just my notes about what I feel..looks like a random one huh. Because I'm missing you, Boy. So much.

-Bali, 24th October 2013 *a week when I couldn't be with you-

My Sleeping Child

The Milky Way upon the heavens Is twinkling just for you
And Mr. Moon he came by
To say goodnight to you

I'll sing for you I'll sing for father
We're praying for the world
And for the people everywhere
Gonna show them all we care 

Oh my sleeping child the world's so wild
But you've build your own paradise
That's one reason why I'll cover you sleeping child 

If all the people around the world
They had a mind like yours
We'd have no fighting and no wars
There would be lasting peace on Earth 

If all the kings and all the leaders
Could see you here this way
They would hold the Earth in their arms
They would learn to watch you play 

Oh my sleeping child the world's so wide
But you've build your own paradise
That's one reason why I'll cover you sleeping child 

I'm gonna cover my sleeping child
Keep you away from the world so wide 

-Michael Learns to Rock-

#Udah sedih duluan bayangin minggu depan bakal pisah beberapa hari sama @alifdipantara :(

Kantor baru (lagi)

Seminggu pertama di kantor baru, Alhamdulillah bersemangat. Karena jarak rumah-kantor yang lebih pendek dari sebelumnya, jadi ga terlalu cape kalo pulang kantor.

Awalnya saya pikir, pasti akan lebih boros untuk uang makan siang..soalnya lokasi kantor di daerah yg banyak tempat mkn & resto2. Eh tapi ternyata oh ternyata..banyak juga anak kantor yang suka bawa bekel dari rumah..atau makan siangnya pesen yg murmer di sekitar situ ke OB. Biasanya dimakan bareng-bareng di meja makan.

Yang lebih menyenangkan lagi, di meja makan ada kaleng kerupuk besar yang selalu ada isinya dan gratis! Aseek ga tuh? :D #PencintaGratisan